lesson: Not all things are joking matters

Dear you,
There are some things i guess i should probably say, but haven't found the right time to say them or figured out the right words. So here it goes:

 1) I should have explained earlier... but i have a tendency of turning situations that are difficult into a joke... incase you haven't noticed. :)

 2) Your my best guy friend at butler. I honestly don't know what i would do without you. Every time i am around you I am so happy and content with my life. You don't always know the right words to say (often using the wrong tense for y'all)  or what to do, but i know that when your with me everything will be okay. Thank you for that.

 3) I am horribly selfish.  I know you want to be more than friends and I haven't given you a justifiable reason why i don't want to be, but the truth is I love how things are now so much I don't want to ruin it. Your my broski, and i am not sure if i have feelings for you in that way. I am also afraid one day you are going to get tired of me and no longer be my friend, but if thats what you need to do i accept that i guess. :(

 4) You deserve a girl who doesn't have to question their feelings for you. A girl that is head over heals crazy about you.

That is a little glimpse as to whats going on in my head, just in case you were wondering.